Marriage is.....

Marriage is…..
Marriage is made of many things:
Rose bouquets and wedding rings,
Something barrowed….something blue…
A great big cook book (something new)!
The best man’s toast, the bride maid’s lace,

The smile upon an ushers face…
Bright confetti, showers of rice,
A wedding cake…and good advice!
Brand new brushes, brand new brooms,
A brand new budget book (the groom’s)

Promises and cozy plans,
Kisses, hugs and pots and pans,
Towels monogrammed just right,
Roast beef hash and candle light…

Stereo and crystal lamps,
Frozen foods and trading stamps,
Sunday brunches and barbeques
And later maybe baby shoes…
Love to light the way through life,
A happy man, a happy wife.

~Amanda Elizabeth Vanderwey~
January 22nd , 2006

= ) My mom wrote this for me..when i was little she hopes it will cheer me up...lol so she asked me to post it so I will

Amanda Elizabeth
In my dreams the pictures of you always seem to be so clear
your laughing eyes piercing my heart your giggling voice so dear
and as i look to your father there is so much love i see
I see the joy with in his heart as proud as he can be
and i myself so filled with joy watching you as you grow
every step a little older and that much harder to let you go
Oh my dear amanda you are my miracle come true
On the day you were born god truly blessed me with you.
~Amee Allan~ That's my mom this was written july 1989

WARNING!!!!! CAUTION!!!!!

This is a warning to all those who hate poetry if so you came to the wrong place! That or you can scroll down and see the pics!

Lost

I feel as though the Im lost
with nowhere else to hide
everythings become hardened
there's no life left inside
Im not sure who i am
but i seem to have lost my heart
I am no longer the person i knew
that person had to part
the pain was just to strong
that something had to give
the feelings had to go
in order for me to live
im scared that one day i'll find
that the pain has come back again
and all the hurt i tried to stop
could never truly end
~Amanda~

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There are so many things on my mind
and yet they're so hard to exspress
but the longer i leave them inside
I'm happy .....less and less

My emotions are in a jumble
I cant seem to figure it out

I think it would have been easier
If there had never been this doubt

you say you'll never leave me
and that i mean everything to you
but i never know if we'll last
or if someday youll want us to be through

You get so quiet at times
that i know youre not thinkin of me
and my heart becomes so broken
and i feel so lonely

I supposes someday I' ll know
if you truly do love me

but i hope its not to late
smoeday...eventually
~Amanda Vanderwey~

Once again

Lonely once again am i
with no answers in my heart
and i am praying that it will all soon end
and this pain will someday part
the hard part now is living
and having the will to survive
but in a little while i pray
ill love just being alone
but still the lonelyness over whelms me
and the future is so hard to see
that i wish this all would end
and my spirit could be set free
I guess i am holding on to a dream
and I should someday face reality
and realize that all my life
my heart will always be lonely
the only one who can change that is me
~Amanda Vanderwey~

OREGON FRIENDS ARE THE BEST OF FRIENDS!

Nic, Kris, Brian, Amber, Bridget, Floyd, and Polly

TE HE!!!

Brian your awesome!

Yogi!

Kris!

My Bestest Friend

AMBER Dennis!!!

ALEX YOU ROCK!!!

More friends from idaho

Yeah This is ryan...

I dated ryan for about two years than I moved to oregon..

Don't let the I am "bad" look he is trying to pull of make you think he's weird lol

He is actually real sweet

ASH... Ashley i am glad to say is my only friend from past that hasn't changed

She is still her AWESOME Self!

Wes on the other hand went with the punk skater thing.

Keep in mind i have known these guys since elementry.

And I truely never suspected this lol

DANE!!!!

My neighbor and friend!

Dane is an TOTALLY AWESOME GUY!!

See i told you ryan aint all that bad...

= )

Two of my good friends from idaho

Emily I met in 6th grade and was best friends till i moved.
This is emily and Madison

After i left there was and still is a big punk phase.

No idea why

oops just ignore lol

this is my other once upon a time best friend Victoria

MORE PICS

My little bro and his friend Hunter lol
Moi (yeah I was just THAT bored)
My moms pic line lol i am sorry for those who get sicked out easily

This is up here for a reason trust me

All I can say is that next time someone wants to acuse me of being a liar

They should maybe MAKE SURE I AM LIEING!

JUST AN IDEA!

And who would lie about somethin so serious...geez

Me and my Grandpa last november at the mall.

MY FAMILY LOVES DDR!

MORE PICS OF ME AND FAMILY

My Aunt Wendy and my mom...the Gause on her arm is from her pic line so its not broken.
Many of my friends *cough* Alex *cough* tell me a lot that I am weird lol well what can i say besides that it is GENETIC!
HEY LOOK I CAN FLY!!

philsophy

THESE ARE AWESOME!!!!! ; )

Maybe God wanted us to meet the wrong people before meeting the right oneso that when we finally meet the right person, we will know how to begrateful for that gift.

Maybe when the door of happiness closes, another opens, but often times welook so long at the closed door that we don't see the one which has beenopened for us.

Maybe the best kind of friend is the kind you can sit on a porch and swingwith, never say a word, and then walk away feeling like it was the bestconversation you've ever had.

Maybe it is true that we don't know what we've got until we lose it, but it is also true that we don't know what we've been missing until it arrives.

Don't go for looks; they can deceive. Don't go for wealth; even that fadesaway. Go for someone who makes you smile because it takes only a smile tomake a dark day seem bright. Find the one that makes your heart smile.

There are moments in life when you miss someone so much that you just want to pick them from your dreams and hug them for real. Dream what you want to dream; go where you want to go; be what you want to be, because you haveonly one life and one chance to do all the things you want to do.

May you have enough happiness to make you sweet, enough trials to make youstrong, enough sorrow to keep you human, enough hope to make you happy.

The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best of everything; theyjust make the most of everything that comes along their way.

Love begins with a smile, grows with a kiss and ends with a tear. The brightest future will always be based on a forgotten past, you can't go on well in life until you let go of your past failures and heartaches.

When you were born, you were crying and everyone around you was smiling.Live your life so that when you die, you are the one smiling and everyonearound you is crying.

Don't read if you get emotional easily! lol!

Alex just to let you know i am not in a deppressed "woe to me mood" I just tliked the writing. lol!

You're not worth the tears,
you're not worth the heartache.
I don't know why I give you the time.
You're not worth the pain,
you're not worth the emptiness.
I don't know why I wish you were mine.

When I Look At You My Heart Skips A Beat
But Later That Beat Could Mean A Lifetime Of Tears
Wasted On Something I Knew I Could Never Have

My Heart Was Taken By You,
Broken By You
And Now Is In Pieces
Because Of You

Who do you turn to when the only person who can stop you from crying is the one who is making you cry?

I'm afraid to love afraid to love so fast, because every time I fall in love it never seems to last.

The weirdest thing happened the other morning... I woke up with tears in my eyes...and one rolling down my cheek... and I knew I must have been dreaming of you again.

I'm not supposed to love you,
I'm not supposed to care,
I'm not supposed to live my life wishing you were there,
I'm not supposed to wonder where you are and what to do,
I'm sorry I can't help myself, I'm in love with you.

Nothing hurts more than realising he meant everything to you, but you meant nothing to him

From now.
Till ever.
I will be here.
Through think and thin
.Ive perservered.
So many times ive come up short.
Heard qoute apon quote.
Such as youve been a good sport.
Im sick of the lies.
Is no one true.
All i want is one true person,
That can say I LOVE YOU.

This is who i am

Ive loved.
Ive lost.
Ive played the game.
Ive grown to question.
Question it all.
Questions of life.
Questions for all.
Some wrongs gone unpunished.
Punished for wrongs not done.
Sometimes i feel like giving up.
Sometimes i feel i dont give a fuck.
But day by day i keep pushing on.
And day by day i still live on.
For this I am greatful.
Yes greatful am i.
That i have the power to not give in.
So with that said,
I say ADUE.
And hope you all can keep pushing on too.
rc

another sad love poem sorry

Let’s all join in,
Here comes the chorus:“I think I’m in love!”
They say.
Oh, how I’d love to roll my eyes

Unfortunately,
My eyes are now heart-shaped.
Disproportionate and glowing crimson,
This must be hell.

Certainly my “hearts” decieve me,
That really couldn’t be him,
Could it?
With her?
“Oh, woe is me!”
I cry.

But alas,
I am helpless in my state of vulnerability.
My “hearts” now crushed,
I am blind to the world and it’s tranquilities.
In the absence of those hearts is a blank void,
A void the sorrow of loss gladly and swiftly consumes
.This blindness marks the end of my time
With the living.
Life is taken,
Happenstance that it is my own.
But you need not worry,
For I HOPE I shall love again

Hypocrite

You really are somethingwith your flaccid stiffness,
your direct indecisiveness,
You say what you mean,
but what good is meaning without purpose?
Your love be cold and ur hatred warmth,
lose yourself to individuality,
and find yourself amongst the masses,
you push the ones you love,
away from where you wish to be,
but towards where you wish you were.
For this i will not stand,
Not you,
Hypocrite.

written by a good friend of mine!

This Side Up
By Dane H.

Careful,
I won't be here forever,
you know,
Sure,
I'm an allright person.
I suppose I could have done more,
But then again couldn't we all have?
I no longer question with the why,
the how,
the if.
I simply know.
And though I have the knowledge,
I do not pertain the right.
The right with which to elaborate,
Nor do I care.
Apathy is a generalization,of my kind.
And though I'm as inspiring as a wall of brick,
I'm fragile as a vase.
The vase where you placed those flowers,
Those flowers of vain beauty,
In your vain perception.
Because we believe what we see,and only so much.
An iceberg shows only so much,
when below the surface,
it has so much more to offer.