= ) My mom wrote this for me..when i was little she hopes it will cheer me up...lol so she asked me to post it so I will

Amanda Elizabeth
In my dreams the pictures of you always seem to be so clear
your laughing eyes piercing my heart your giggling voice so dear
and as i look to your father there is so much love i see
I see the joy with in his heart as proud as he can be
and i myself so filled with joy watching you as you grow
every step a little older and that much harder to let you go
Oh my dear amanda you are my miracle come true
On the day you were born god truly blessed me with you.
~Amee Allan~ That's my mom this was written july 1989

WARNING!!!!! CAUTION!!!!!

This is a warning to all those who hate poetry if so you came to the wrong place! That or you can scroll down and see the pics!

Lost

I feel as though the Im lost
with nowhere else to hide
everythings become hardened
there's no life left inside
Im not sure who i am
but i seem to have lost my heart
I am no longer the person i knew
that person had to part
the pain was just to strong
that something had to give
the feelings had to go
in order for me to live
im scared that one day i'll find
that the pain has come back again
and all the hurt i tried to stop
could never truly end
~Amanda~

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There are so many things on my mind
and yet they're so hard to exspress
but the longer i leave them inside
I'm happy .....less and less

My emotions are in a jumble
I cant seem to figure it out

I think it would have been easier
If there had never been this doubt

you say you'll never leave me
and that i mean everything to you
but i never know if we'll last
or if someday youll want us to be through

You get so quiet at times
that i know youre not thinkin of me
and my heart becomes so broken
and i feel so lonely

I supposes someday I' ll know
if you truly do love me

but i hope its not to late
smoeday...eventually
~Amanda Vanderwey~

Once again

Lonely once again am i
with no answers in my heart
and i am praying that it will all soon end
and this pain will someday part
the hard part now is living
and having the will to survive
but in a little while i pray
ill love just being alone
but still the lonelyness over whelms me
and the future is so hard to see
that i wish this all would end
and my spirit could be set free
I guess i am holding on to a dream
and I should someday face reality
and realize that all my life
my heart will always be lonely
the only one who can change that is me
~Amanda Vanderwey~