The best dreams happen when you're awake. ~ Nicole Lawrence ~

The class clown is the person who runs across the field naked at Homecoming. The class comic is the person who talked them into it. ~ Billy Crystal ~

The meeting of two personalities is like the contact of two chemical substances: if there is any reaction, both are transformed. ~ Carl Jung ~

Sadness flies on the wings of the morning and out of the darkness comes the light. ~ Shaun Giraudoux ~

Gravitation cannot be held responsible for people falling in love. ~ Albert Einstein ~

Good Americans, when they die, go to Paris. ~ Thomas Appleton ~

Men create war to compete with women, who create life. ~ Sharon Doubiago ~

An eye for an eye, and the world would go blind. ~ Ghandi ~

And the day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom. ~ Anais Nin ~

I've loved and I've hated. I find I like hate better. Hate doesn't hurt as much when taken away." ~ Kevin Howell ~

If you can't convince them, confuse them. ~ Harry S. Truman ~

The only me (thats right so deal!)

(Ok i know this is repetitive)
Tell Me
Tell me how I'm feelin
Tell me what I dream
Tell me I'm just acting
Tell me how I seem
Tell me how to srcream
Tell me who I hate
Tell me who I like
Tell me how I feel
Since you think you are alwasy right
tell me how I look
HA yeah right!!
Read me like a book
Then let ME! tell you something
Though I know you won't agree
Only I know what I'm thinking
Because only I am the only ME !
AMANDA VANDERWEY

NO one waits forever

There was a time when we both caredBut the love that was there was never sharedI loved you and you loved meTogether forever, we were meant to beWe would laugh, joke, cry, and smileThe time we spent was more than a whileSide by side, together each dayYou were in my heart and there to stayTHe love we had was always thereBut neither of us was willing to sharePeople would say we were more than just friendsBut that's all we were in the endThe love that was there finally disappearedI finally faced the thing i most fearedI moved on without you in my lifeBut i can't help but think you and i were just so rightWe were made for each other, meant to beBut all too well i've come to seeAnd much as you know you love the otherIf it's never said...no on waits forever
~NOT WRITTEN BY ME~ ( i would just like to state that only th ethings with my name at the bottom are written by me)

FOR HE KNOWS

We can not hide from God
He knows just where we are.
He can search us out
Whether we're near of far.
He knows why we're running
And He will forgive, it's true
He understands -
Each and everything we do.
We might as well stop running
Stop and be still
Repent and ask forgiveness
And try to do His will.

Twinkie and Rootbeer

A little boy wanted to meet God. He knew it was a long> trip to where God lived, so he packed his suitcase with Twinkies and a six-pack of Root Beer and he started his journey. When he had gone about three blocks, he met an elderly man. The man was sitting in the park just feeding some pigeons The boy sat down next to him and opened his suitcase. He was about to take a drink from his root beer when he noticed that the man looked hungry, so he offered him a Twinkie. The man gratefully accepted it and smiled at boy. His smile was so pleasant that the boy wanted to see it again, so he offered him a root beer. Again, the man smiled at him. The boy was delighted! They sat there all afternoon eating and smiling, but they never said a word. As it grew dark, the boy realized how tired he was and he got up to leave, but before he had gone more than a few steps, he turned around, ran back to the man, and gave him a hug. The man gave him his biggest smile ever. When the boy opened the door to his own house a short time later, his mother was surprised by the look of joy on his face She asked him, "What did you do today that made you so happy? "He replied, "I had lunch with God." But before his mother could respond, he added, "You know what? God's got the most beautiful smile I've ever seen!" Meanwhile, the elderly man, also radiant with joy, returned to his home. His son was stunned by the look of peace on his face and he asked," Dad, what did you do today that made you so happy?"He replied, "I ate Twinkies in the park with God" However, before his son responded, he added," You know, he's much younger than I expected." Too often we underestimate the power of a touch, a smile, a kind word, a listening ear, an honest compliment, or the smallest act of caring, all of which have the potential to turn a life around. People come into our lives for a reason, a season, or a lifetime. Embrace all equally!
~author unknown~

here are a few really good music videos
(How do yoy get that lonely?"
http://launch.yahoo.com/video/default.asp?vid=15455772
"Broken - Featuring Amy Lee" Music Video
http://launch.yahoo.com/video/default.asp?vid=2164427
"True" Music Video
http://music.yahoo.com/video/8196600/
"With arms wide open" Creed
http://music.yahoo.com/video/2149476/
"Higher" Creed
http://music.yahoo.com/video/2149473/
"My Own Prison" Music Video
http://music.yahoo.com/video/2149472/
"Someday" Music Video
http://launch.yahoo.com/video/default.asp?vid=2158096

My world

It is as if i am invisible to everyone around me.
I just sit back here stuck in my old memories
Everyone sees me and yet notices that i am truely not there
For again i am lost in a world of my own.
Where knights in shinning armor fight dragons
who are prtecting the nests
Along with all their tresure chests
There might be a white steed or a black one instead
with my knights you really can never tell what will happen next.

-Amanda Vanderwey

kindergarten

I walked in to that room that 1st day
and all i saw was you
nobody else knew
that right then and there was when i fell in love with you
My heart had started beating faster
my face was turning extremly red
the teacher said to take a seat next a kid named ben
but i decided to sit next to you instead
You took a glance at my direction
i swear i was about to burst
the next thing i knew
I was sitting there starring at you
with a look that said it all
I had fallen hard for you
(That is were i had orginally stopped but when i was typing i thought of this which might be pushing it a wee bit) *(sorry)
Look at us now 10 years have passed
since i met you in that class
we are in highschool and having a blast
I often still look at you in the halls
knowing you don't notice me at all
but that doesn't stop me because i know
that my love is true
and that all i have to do
is just sit back
Ten more years have passed
and we are almost out of school
thats right we are almost through
but what is really cool
is me and you
we have said our vows and our i love yous
and we are exspecting our first baby too
the next thing i know i sitting in that desk still starring at you with a pain in my chest hoping and wishing for the best.

-Amanda Vanderwey

thoughts ( yes i do have thoughts!)

ok this might be a little lame but it was fun!

these thoughts of mine are quiet intreging
these thought of mine are quiet intruding

I am huddleing away from the world from sorrow, pain, and boredom.
I am huddling away from the world, everyone, you, and possibly myself.

Does it matter where i am or who i am but not why i am?

This mind of mine has felt fear this mind of mine has seen sadness. this mind of mine has heard darkness. But though my mind has seen heard and felt it has no comparison to my heart. For my heart though through it all can decide wether it affect my life or not.

I will often times write to release my stress in a slower manner
but often times it just crashes and falls out.

Love is like a sring if you were to push it away it will slck
But if you were to pull and welcome instead you will get love back

Some truths are only lies we have come to believe

"One result of inflation is that ten pennies are now only worth a dime"

so yeah can you see how bored i am???

Childhood

Childhood awwww... the memories of being so young.
There was joy with laughter,
Sadness with tears,
we were rarely afraid of showing our fears.
Now our emotions we just hide away
with our thoughts and meomories of those yesterdays.

And you knew

I tried to put the pieces back together by myself,
Don't you know i tried?
I had been so angry with you so long.
And i couldn't just accept the reason why.
I never thought i would say this,
i had hated you all along
I tried to be good
you know the perfect child
who knew it could be so hard?
I prayed to you
I had asked for your forgiveness
And all i felt was.......
Anger and pain
I didn't understand
What i was doing wrong
So i stopped trying
That's when you took my hand
you helped me pick up the pieces
and lay them out right,
Almost like you already knew.
I thought i would feel hurt
That i had need your help to do something i couldn't
Instead i felt joy and laughter filling my heart
Finnally i could stop trying
stop trying to do things all on my own
I tried putting the pieces back together on my own,
and some how you knew.

-Amanda vanderwey

My best friend

i think about it often
there is not much i can do
i can't keep these thoughts out of my mind
All i can think about is you
you were my savior
the one that held me down
why you decided to go
i guess i will never know
For you are passed and for the time gone now
And i ask my self what shall i do
Me and you were everything
to me it seems with out you i am nothing
why did you decide to do it
I guess i will never know
you always told me to be strong
And just relax and play along
with all the corruption and that lieing deception
It is not easy to hide our altered perception
and know you are gone
you left me all alone
with really no place to go
My love
my best friend
why did you have to go?

-Amanda Vanderwey

One of my favorite quotes (of course it is altered bc i don remember it perfectly)

"A friend is someone who can come and sit by you for hours or minutes with nothing being said and then get up and feel like you had a great conversation and a lot was said."

like i said that is way altered but it is basically saying the same thing if any of you know the real Quote will you let me know! Thanks.

Man has it been a while since i have been this happy!

I am so happy!!! Lol. And really i have no idea why! ok i do! I soon am 17 i am soon going to be back home with my bestest friends. I AM ALMOST 17 WOOOOHHOOOOO!!! But though my life at school is pretty boring i still have freinds that i talk to that keep me busy! Which makes my life so so so......much easier! So yeah i am really happy and excited i feel like running around and being a total idiot/dork oh wait.... i do that most of th etime when i am happy. I think that is what makes me happy truely to be able to laugh at myself because i am being weird which also makes it to were i don't care really what people think of me. : ) MAn am i happy!

You mustn't quit.

When things go wrong like they sometimes will,

When the road your trudging seems all uphill,

When the funds are lowand debts high,

And you want to smile, but you have to sigh,

When care is pressing you down a bit,

Rest if you must but never quit.

Life is queer, with its twists and turns,

As everyone of us sometimes learns,

And many a faliure turns about

When he might have won if he stuck it out, Stick to you task, though the pase seems slow. You may succeed with one more blow. Success is faliure turned inside out The silver tints of the clouds of doubt. And you can never tell how close you are, It may be near when it seems afar, So stick to the fight when you're hardest hit. It's when things seem worst that, You mustn't quit! -Unknown

What is Love? (This is really cute!) (oops.. sorry...SWEET!)

What does Love mean?
A group of professional people posed this question to a group of 4 to 8 year-olds, "What does love mean?" The answers they got were broader and deeper than anyone could have imagined. See what you think:

"When my grandmother got arthritis, she couldn't bend over and paint her toenails anymore. So my grandfather does it for her all the time, even when his hands got arthritis too. That's love." Rebecca- age 8

"When someone loves you, the way they say your name is different. You just know that your name is safe in their mouth." Billy - age 4

"Love is when a girl puts on perfume and a boy puts on shaving cologne and they go out and smell each other." Karl - age 5

"Love is when you go out to eat and give somebody most of your French fries without making them give you any of theirs." Chrissy - age 6

"Love is what makes you smile when you're tired." Terri - age 4

"Love is when my mommy makes coffee for my daddy and she takes a sip before giving it to him, to make sure the taste is OK." Danny - age 7

"Love is when you kiss all the time. Then when you get tired of kissing, you still want to be together and you talk more." Emily - age 8

"Love is what's in the room with you at Christmas if you stop opening presents and listen." Bobby - age 7 (Wow!)

"If you want to learn to love better, you should start with a friend who you hate." Nikka - age 6 (we need a few million more Nikka's on this planet)

"Love is when you tell a guy you like his shirt, then he wears it everyday." Noelle - age 7

"Love is like a little old woman and a little old man who are still friends even after they know each other so well." Tommy - age 6

"During my piano recital, I was on a stage and I was scared. I looked at all the people watching me and saw my daddy waving and smiling. He was the only one doing that. I wasn't scared anymore." Cindy - age 8

"My mommy loves me more than anybody . You don't see anyone else kissing me to sleep at night." Clare - age 6

"Love is when Mommy gives Daddy the best piece of chicken." Elaine-age 5

"Love is when Mommy sees Daddy smelly and sweaty and still says he is handsomer than Robert Redford." Chris - age 7

"Love is when your puppy licks your face even after you left him alone all day." Mary Ann - age 4

"I know my older sister loves me because she gives me all her old clothes and has to go out and buy new ones." Lauren - age 4

"When you love somebody, your eyelashes go up and down and little stars come out of you." (what an image) Karen - age 7

"Love is when Mommy sees Daddy on the toilet and she doesn't think it's gross." Mark - age 6

"You really shouldn't say 'I love you' unless you mean it. But if you mean it, you should say it a lot. People forget." Jessica - age 8

And the final one -- Author and lecturer Leo Buscaglia once talked about a contest he was asked to judge. The purpose of the contest was to find the most caring child. The winner was a four year old child whose next door neighbor was an elderly gentleman who had recently lost his wife. Upon seeing the man cry, the little boy went into the old gentleman's yard, climbed onto his lap, and just sat there. When his Mother asked what he had said to the neighbor, the little boy said, "Nothing, I just helped him cry"

A few "Happy" poems

I Wrote Your Name
I wrote your name on a piece of paper, but by
Accident I threw it away .
I wrote your name on my hand, but it washed
away. I wrote your name in the sand, but the waves
Whispered it away.
I wrote your name in my heart, and forever it
will stay.

May there always be work for your hands to do;
May your purse always hold a coin or two;
May the sun always shine on your windowpane;
May a rainbow be certain to follow each rain;
May the hand of a friend always be near you;
May God fill your heart with gladness to cheer you