Diary Entries (GUY)

10th GRADE...
As I sat there in English class, I stared at the girl
next to me. She was my so called "best friend". I
stared at her long, silky hair, and wished she was
mine. But she didn't notice me like that, and I knew
it. After class, she walked up to me and asked me for
the notes she had missed the day before and handed
them to her. She said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on
the cheek. I wanted to tell her, I want her to know
that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but
I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

11th GRADE...
The phone rang. On the other end, it was her. She was
in tears, mumbling on and on about how her love had
broke her heart. She asked me to come over because she
didn't want to be alone, so I did. As I sat next to
her on the sofa, I stared at her soft eyes, wishing
she was mine. After 2 hours, one Drew Barrymore movie,
and three bags of chips, she decided to go to sleep.
She looked at me, said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on
the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that
I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm
just too shy, and I don't know why.

SENIOR YEAR...
The day before prom she walked to my locker. "My date
is sick" she said; he's not going to go well, I didn't
have a date, and in 7th grade, we made a promise that
if neither of us had dates, we would go together just
as "best friends". So we did. Prom night, after
everything was over, I was standing at her front door
step! I stared at her as she smiled at me and stared
at me with her crystal eyes. I want her to be mine,
but she doesn't think of me like that, and I know it.
Then she said "I had the best time, thanks!" and gave
me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her
to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love
her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.
Graduation Day
A day passed, then a week, then a month. Before I
could blink, it was graduation day. I watched as her
perfect body floated like an angel up on stage to get
her diploma. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn't
notice me like that, and I knew it. Before everyone
went home, she came to me in her smock and hat, and
cried as I hugged her. Then she lifted her head from
my shoulder and said, "you're my best friend, thanks"
and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I
want her to know that I don't want to be just friends,
I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

A FEW YEARS LATER...
Now I sit in the pews of the church. That girl is
getting married now. I watched her say "I do" and
drive off to her new life, married to another man. I
wanted her to be mine, but she didn`t see me like
that, and I knew it. But before she drove away, she
came to me and said "you came!". She said "thanks" and
kissed me on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her
to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love
her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

FUNERAL...
Years passed, I looked down at the coffin of a girl
who used to be my "best friend". At the service, they
read a diary entry she had wrote in her high school
years. This is what it read:
I stare at him wishing he was mine, but he doesn't
notice me like that, and I know it. I want to tell
him, I want him to know that I don't want to be just
friends, I love him but I'm just too shy, and I don't
know why. I wish he would tell me he loved me!
I wish I did too... I thought to my self, and I cried.



~> I did not write this.

Her best Friend

She cried and she cries all night
she tried to hold back, to stay strong and fight
she didn't know what to fu**ing do
every passing day, her scars grew
everyone thought her life was so perfect
she'd always win ans never quit
but little did they know about her 2nd life
the only best friend she had was her own little knife
it was always there for her
it got rid of her pain for it was the cure
her scars told many stories
of her misery,pain and of her worries
darkness was her hunter and she was the prey
she didn't want to run anymore so she ended it that day
she ran home with a stone face right after school
she knew what she's do and that she was a fool
but she didn't care
because her life was never fair
she ran up to her room
and awaited her doom
she slowly picked up her one and only friend
just five minutes till she meets the end
she locked her door
so no one could find her on the floor
with a little push, her dark deed was done
So here ends the story that darkness had won!

Poem (For someone who knows who they are!)

If I could catch a rainbow
I would do it just for you
and share with you its beauty
On the days you're feeling blue.



If I could build a mountain
You could call your very own;
A place to find serenity,
A place to be alone.



If I could take your troubles
I would toss them in the sea,
But all these things I'm finding
are impossible for me.





I cannot build a mountain
Or catch a rainbow fair,
But let me be what I know best,
A friend who's always there

QUOTEs

Have you noticed how whenever people are deep in thought they never smile. That really tells you something about people who smile all the time." –Phil

"I deal with agression issues very maturely and intelligently. I break things." -Tian Xie

"Egotistical people are people who spend too much time thinking about themselves and not enough time thinking about me" -Ambrose Pierce

If love is the answer, could you rephrase the question? -- Lily Tomlin

Some cause happiness wherever they go; others, whenever they go. -- Oscar Wilde

I could tell that my parents hated me. My bath toys were a toaster and a radio. -- Rodney Dangerfield

I remember the time I was kidnapped and they sent a piece of my finger to my father. He said he wanted more proof. -- Rodney Dangerfield

My father carries around the picture of the kid who came with his wallet. -- Rodney Dangerfield

When I was born ... the doctor came out to the waiting room and said to my father ... I'm very sorry. We did everything we could ... but he pulled through. -- Rodney Dangerfield
My mother had morning sickness after I was born. -- Rodney Dangerfield

Laugh At Me (everyone else does)

I have moved once again. Unfortunetly. In early November I moved from Woodburn High school to Capital High school then i moved to Gem State Academy on the 27th of November. Which is where i am at now it is truely not that bad anymor now that i have gotten to know more (guys) PEOPLE! ; ) Well anyways so yeah I have just at this very last moment decided what i am actually going to put on this BLOG. STUFF!!!! whahahha i am a genius. TOODLES!!!! (Oh by the way only COOL people say TOODLES. So if you want to be cool say Toodles so yes you are aloud to say toodles if you want to.)

My life and why it sucks.

IT'S MY LIFE WHAT MORE DO YOU NEED TO KNOW?

Yes, welcome to my world!!!